Sun Signs

We are so much more than our sun signs!
Exact time and place of our birth creates the unique characters we come to play in the Great Epic of Life on Earth. Then stars and planets carefully time each chapter of our lives, while karma weaves in the people and situations we must deal with.
But, of course, people with the same sun signs share similar traits, and here they are:
ARIES: Aries is the sign composed of energies (vibrations) of fire and Mars. Both energies are similar in nature: fast and impulsive. Mars vibrates the physical energy in our body, allowing movement, so we can either get what we want or repulse what we don't want. Together, these energies create a rather aggressive field. Moreover, the mode of this sign is cardinal, which creates constant fast motion.
Sun, whose energies represent our self-identity and conscious desires, is exalted in Aries, because our desires are more likely to be fulfilled if we pursue them aggressively. A timid Aries is a rare phenomenon. But even then, we would never know that, as no Aries would dare to act timid!
People with Aries sign tend to be always in the rush, and on the go. They are the doers of Zodiac, with so many projects on their huge to-do list, that they need other Zodiacal energies to complete any of them.
Since fire, Mars and Sun are all yang (male) energies, even Aries women are male chauvinists! It's a MACHO sign!
TAURUS: Taurus is composed of earth energy (very slow) and Venusian energy (similar to a stationary magnet with great power of attraction). So it is a sign of very slow steady energies. Moreover, the mode is fixed.
That means that any movement, any change creates anxiety. People with Taurus Sun signs desire stability. Venusian energies add champaign taste, and earth energy gives plenty of common sense. So Taurus people are material creatures with great penchant for comfort and luxury. Combination of Venusian and earth energies creates great sensuality and tactile senses are heightened. "Stop and smell the roses" is Taurus motto.
GEMINI: This sign's energy is composed of air (mental energy of moderately fast vibrations)and Mercurial (mental)energies. The mode is mutable, which gives Gemini energy field two poles, and energy moves from one pole to another.
So Gemini is a doubly mental energy, making people with Gemini sun signs intellectual, flexible, and capable of seeing both sides of any issue.
Mercury represents the little computer in our head, with our brain being the CPU, and the central nervous system acting as the "Intel" chip. That's why Geminis are nervous high-strung types.
But Mercury the Greek God is also forever young. So Geminis tend to stay young in body and mind well into their old age. They are the Peter Pans of the Zodiac, forever curious, forever young at heart.
CANCER: This energy is composed of water (moderately slow vibrations allowing for greater sensitivity) and Moon energy that represents our Astral body,the keeper of memories and feelings. Cardinal mode here creates constant e-motion (fast moving feelings) that are highly responsive (sensitive) to the environment.
Of course, that makes Cancerians to be highly emotional sensitive people.
Like all water people, they are highly insecure.
The Moon dictates our needs and attachments, so Cancerians are needy and get too easily emotionally attached.
But the Moon also represents the archetypal Mother, the main provider for our needs.
Since the Sun represents our identity, which we tend to model on the father figure, many Cancerians lacked the available father figure in early childhood, so they have modeled their self-identity on the mother, and even men are the mothering types!
To be continued...

True Purpose of Life

Unfortunately, we tend to think about these types of topics only when life gets us hard.
So, I have been down on my luck lately, and, of course, have been thinking about my life and life in general.
And this is what I came up with:
1) Life is a tough game: you either do or die :-)
Why do we do it then? (assuming we are Divine Souls, made in the image of God and, therefore, perfect)
My thinking is: for thrills.
Long ago I asked someone who went mountain climbing for the first time, "How was it?"
"Terror, pure terror", he answered, joyfully smiling.
I was not sure then, if he smiled from the joy of making down alive or if he enjoyed remembering his terror. Now I think it was both.
I am one of very rare people who actually remember some of their past lives.
When I was a child, I clearly remembered little bits and pieces of my previous life. I just did not know what to make of it then, since, while I knew it was my life, it was seemingly completely incongruent with my present life. Then, when I was 18 y.o., sitting at my friend's apartment and listening to Jesus Christ Super Star, I was suddenly flooded with memories of that life, and I finally knew where to place my incongruent childhood memories.
Afterwards, I was able to remember additional 26 lives of mine. Some I remembered on my own, some - with the help of my friends hypnotists who also liked the thrill of past life regressions.
One of these 27 lives was perfect: I was rich, surrounded by splendor and had a nice wife whom I admired (yes, I was a man in that life). Everything seemed to go just right for me then, and that was the only life I remember where I died peacefully, in my bed, from the old age.
But I also remember, how I would look longingly to the always chapped sea below my castle, craving for some kind of adventure that completely eluded me. I think, I was ultimately bored during that life :-)
Well, my present life is certainly not boring, and I find it to be the ultimate adventure just living day to day, and I long for riches, splendor and peace...:-)
And I have to remind myself from time to time about what I am really doing here:
2) Rediscovering my Divinity - the ultimate individual purpose of living souls.
Yes, I do think that life is a game, spanning hundreds of lives, where we go from Level 1 - where we identify ourselves with a little character we are playing in that particular life, to the Level 2 - where we begin to identify ourselves as souls, playing different characters in the long epic of Life, to the Level 3, where we identify ourselves with the Divine All There Is and become it.
I am on Level 2 now: I am nowhere near in charge of my Divinity, but I already know myself to be a soul with many lives and characters, different names, nationalities and genders, talents and faults, playing in a Story that my karma is weaving into the Epic of Life.
Does it make living any easier? Somewhat. After all, now I can always say to myself with absolute certainty: "It's only a life". I am looking at life now like at mountain skiing that I enjoy so much: there are easy slopes and challenging slopes, and the more advanced we are, the more we aim at challenging ones. Sometimes, challenge is too much, and, once down, we may head straight to the bar for a steep drink to calm the nerves. Sometimes, we don't even make it down. But, once we heal, we go right back skiing the diamonds.
Because we want to touch the sky and smile, remembering our past terror joyfully.
And, sometimes, when living becomes very, very hard - like now, I have to remind myself that
3) ULTIMATELY I am playing this game for God.
After all, He created this huge ultimate virtual reality we call Life on Earth for His pleasure, and pleasing God is The Best There Is.
Because
4)"It is all about love," as Jesus Christ said in a dream to a long lost friend of mine when she was 12 y.o. child.
She told me about that dream, her eyes gleaming with vivid memory of it, when she was in her early 40s. Those of us who have had dreams like this know that they never fade away, because they are more real than our waking reality.
Did Jesus mean the limited human love of a "I love you, so you better love me back and fulfill my dreams, or I will hate and hurt you" variety?
You are probably waiting for me to say "No":-)
But, I think, yes, because, however imperfect that love might be, it is still a link to the nature of the Divine that we harbor somewhere within ourselves.
Of course, the Divine Love is different. It nurtures and cares with no strings attached.
The way we love our children is the closest we come to that kind of love.
Maybe the very reason we love and enjoy our kids so much is that we expect so little in return. Just think of newborns: they cannot even smile back at us for the first few weeks. All they do is sleep, cry, eat and poop. And their needs are so overwhelming, that we have no time to sleep, eat or poop.
Yet, as we put our own needs aside, we marvel at every crease of their skin, at every sound that they make, and our hearts leap with pride and joy at their tiniest achievements - turning over, grasping a toy, etc. Suddenly, with strings of our needs falling away, our hearts are free to love fully and completely - just like God loves us!
There is nothing sweeter or greater than this realization.
Because it contains the true reason for the whole great game of mirrors we call manifestations, or Maya, or life on planet Earth - The Love needs to love, and so God has created us for that very purpose.
So, in my hour of adversity (and life needs adversity from time to time - but more on that some time later), I am reminding myself that I am Loved and Cared for, that I am never alone.
In fact, somewhere at the very root of my being I even sense my Oneness. But I am also enjoying my separateness, because this way I am entwined with Love, able to experience It fully.

WAKE UP, AMERICA!

So I've got me a kindle! No more spending $2 hard earned dollars on huge bulky New York Times and then suffer all that mess of newspaper pages all over my space, particularly when this space is a tiny seat on the subway, with my newspaper encroaching on fellow passengers' laps! Now New York Times costs me under $15/yr, and I am going green, baby, saving all those trees in the Rain Forest.
I am also thinking how great it is going to be when I go to the summer cottage for 3 weeks, and I would not have to lag all those heavy books with me! Or when I go on the plane, and my tiny light kindle is all I'd need to bring with me instead of books, magazines, etc!...
Everyone, do yourself a favor, get yourself one: KINDLE: Amazon's New Wireless Reading Device
And, of course, after filling my mind with news, I've got myself thinking:
What the %#@! is wrong with you, America?!
Don't my fellow country-men know that every nation on Earth gets itself a government it truly deserves? And look what we've got now!
In just under 7 years, Bush administration managed to destroy our economy, democracy and whatever itsy-bitsy good will we had in the world.
Why? Karma! We had almost impeached a perfectly good president for no good reason whatsoever! Why should we care where our president's dick is if he rules with his other head?
This does not apply to Bush Jr., of course, because he rules with Cheney's head. In this case, maybe, we should worry about where his whatever is.
But, strangely, we don't worry. We are not even thinking about impeaching our dick of the state because he is a war criminal (Iraq), inept (hurricane Katrina)or that he indebted our nation to, perhaps, the only true potential enemy we have (China).
Maybe, because we are not thinking, period. We are entertained by the news on TV, where pretty anchors relish tidbits of political campaigns which they treat like a boxing match.
We don't even know for the most part what the candidates are campaigning about.
I actually took the time, and checked websites of Clinton, Obama, and McCain to see what they stand for, and what they promise.
I, by the way, became a registered democrat during the Clinton impeachment mini-series, promising to myself that from now on I would vote only for democrats out of sheer principle.
I am about to break this promise.
I was never a fan of Hillary Clinton. Let's face it: she does not inspire warm feelings. But I like what she wants to do for this country and how sincerely (rare political trait) she wants to do it. On top of it, her every promise is backed by detailed plans that appear to be doable and fair.
Besides, in my mind, her candidacy always carried an extra bonus of her charismatic husband with brilliant upper head.
But I am not going to vote for her.
Because she wants to withdraw from Iraq before we cleaned up a mess we made there.
My dear fellow Americans, what kind of good will may we possibly have in the world, if we destroy a country for no better reason than oil it has, leave its citizens destitute and in mortal danger on everyday basis, without viable governance and any hope for the future? How's that for Karma?
Yes, I am going to vote for McCaine, the evil Republican, and not because he feels some moral obligation towards citizens of Iraq, but because he wants our army remain there (for whatever reason), so it can help to reconstruct that poor country - and I do feel moral obligation towards it, even though I marched in every rally against the Iraq war.
But America is going to vote for Obama, a guy, who is offering it such a huge socialistic dream, he could not possibly fulfill one tenth of it. I feel bad for all his followers, particularly African-Americans who really think we are "turning the page". Since all Obama is doing is feeding America the unfulfillable empty promises, all the excitement that is following his campaign is going to turn into huge disappointments.
But America is going to vote for Obama. What a bummer!...

Sun Problems

I've got Western Astrology under the belt long time ago. In fact, I have been such a good Western Astrologer that for 9 years I was able to make a pretty good living doing what I love without writing books or even advertising - strictly through the word of mouth.
By the end of 1990s, I thought I've got Vedic Astrology under my belt as well, and started using Vedic Astrology in my forecastings for clients.
Of course, I have always been my #1 client. And, as of lately, I've failed myself.
Vedic Astrology has attracted me long ago by being able to predict whole periods (in chunks of many years) with unfailing (so far) accuracy - but then astrological predictions are only as good as the knowledge of the astrologer who is making them.
Personally, for the last 20 years I lived through my Venus period.
As the ruler of my 11th house of opportunities located in my 10th house of career in my Vedic chart, Venus has been my success planet.
Appropriately, this period started in 1986 during my last semester in college. You can say that practically all my adult life I was under my success star (up to now).
And it's true, up to now I have been successful in all my endeavors. No, I am not rich or famous.
But I have been able to eke a decent living doing what I like and living the way I like.
It has not been all bed of roses. My father died during this period, I cried through the end of my first marriage and few other heartbreaks.
Professionally, however, I was doing well even though I changed my money making venues from time to time as my life was turning one way or the other.
Finally, my Venus period ended in December of 2006, and I have entered my Sun period.
I anticipated this change. My Sun is the money planet in my Vedic chart. It rules the 2nd house of finances and is located in the 11th house of opportunities and gains.
I expected nothing less but monetary windfall. My Sun is relatively strong (it is a Vargottama - for those who speak Vedic) and is nicely aspected.
Of course, I realized that I needed to prepare the way for big money to come in. So in my last year of Venus period I cooked up an idea of big business and went straight for it.
But as soon as my Sun period began, my big business plans went bust, I got seriously ill (pneumonia) and separated from my second husband.
As an astrologer, I had all these possibilities in mind. Sun is a separative planet in general, and as a ruler of the 2nd house, it can kill either me or someone in my family (or both). But I am an optimist and always hope for the best.
Besides, pneumonia did not kill me (it came close though), the end of big business dreams did not hurt all that much, and separation from my husband came as a great relief.
I was still making good money with the business I started 8 years ago, in my 5th month of pregnancy, when I realized that my evenings and weekends must belong to my family and I could no longer do astrology as business.
But I have almost lost that business too at the end of last October, as my major client suddenly went bust.
Now, 4 months later, my business is barely alive, money is scarce, and so are my hopes for a sunny Sun period.... Where did I go wrong? All good Vedic astrologers out there, any thoughts on this Sun problems?

web 2.0

I must confess, I am totally new to the web 2.0.
I've joined a few networking sites in hopes of making some meaningful contacts, to promote my blog, and...
Everyone is a writer. There are no readers. Everyone is selling something, mostly scams.
Spam is filling every discussion, and groups seem to exist to multiply this spam.
Every "networking site" tries to emulate My Space, which is also filled with spam and scams.
It is so easy to get lost on this web 2.0, it's scary. It is an absolutely unreal world, which seems to feed on desperation of very disconnected people. And the more they spend time on those sites, the more they get disconnected from the real world.
But it is addictive, very much like television.
I just realized that I spent this most wonderful sunny day, capped with very rare New York snow, in doors in front of my laptop.
Usually, on days like this, I would be out sledding, making snowmen, revisiting my childhood...
What a sad, sad waste of my precious life moments...

Have no fear - God is here

Yesterday my son had 104' fever second day in the row. I was on the verge of panic. I did everything I knew to bring his fever down: Motrin every 6 hrs, Tylenol every 4 hrs, tea with lemon and honey every 1.5 hrs, sponge baths with water and vinegar. Yet the fever would go down a few points for a short while and then come right back.
Then my estranged husband (we have peacefully separated in September) calls and says that the lab results for his mouth tumor are positive for cancer. Now I am PANICKING.
On those days when I don't see my husband, I rarely hate him. Yesterday I did not hate him. I needed him, as I always do when my child is seriously sick and I feel insecure. So after these news I find myself by the window, smoking away a whole lot of incongruent feelings: I am sorry for my husband, who is a 43 y.o good looking guy, who just lost his mother to cancer and really has no one but us and his very old father; I feel sorry for me, foreseeing having to look after him (just when I thought I got rid off him), him losing his job and me losing my child support.
Then my 7 y. o. child interrupts my sorry thoughts:
-I really don't like these people!
-What people?
-All of them. They torture and kill animals, dirty the air with their cars, and even kill other people!
-Well, it is true, honey. But they really don't intend to do as much harm as they do. If they knew all the extend of the harm they do, they would never act that way. All people want to be good. Absolutely all of them. Most of them just don't know how. That's why when Jesus Christ was dying on the cross, he said to God, "Please forgive them they know not what they do."
-Why would God even let them? (do what they do). What if they mean to be bad? Would God still love them?
-Of course, they are His children. Say, for instance, aunt Irina: she has her son Alexey, who is a very good smart boy. She is very proud of him. He is her joy. But she also has Andrey, who is not as smart, and can behave very badly. But she loves him no less than Alexey. She just worries about him more. So God worries more about bad people, but does not love them any less.
Besides, if everyone was good, and everything went perfectly, how people would know if they are kind - if there was no one who needed their kindness? Or brave - if there were no dangers?
- I am not brave. I am afraid of aliens.
-Well, you just have to remember that God loves you very much. Even more than I do. Because I am imperfect, and He is perfect. If you remember that, He would not let anything bad happen to you. Just tell yourself, "Have no fear - God is here".
And then I thought, did not I just told myself what to do?...